Manifested Moments

02-15-06 - 4:23pm

I thought I would share my own experience with manifestation. :) I did want to make a disclaimer though that this won't be about money manifestation - and in a way, that's why I wanted to make the post in the first place. :) This will be a post about manifestation, period, and the understanding I came to around the concept of money.

See, I still have some crossed wires when it comes to money. :) This won't always be the case, but for now it is - and I'm okay with that. Always learning, always in transition - it's all good. I grew up with my father around constantly resonating in lack thinking. When I wanted to learn to drive, his mantra was, "You'll get in an accident and you'll hurt someone and it'll be expensive!"

I didn't learn to drive until I was 29 - last year, when my wonderfully loving husband coached me along. At first I would cry just getting in the driver's seat! Now I love driving. :) I have a cute little '97 Rav4 (which I manifested, btw *beam* ) with THTCR8S (thought creates) for the license plate and I couldn't be happier. :)

Anyway! Back on topic. Money. I have come to an understanding that money doesn't matter. It really doesn't. I don't want money...I want the stuff that money buys, and I've found I can have that stuff without having money! One day I will uncross my wires about money - I don't like the idea of having *anything* dis-resonant floating around in my vibe - but for now I have come to accept that my manifestation skills are best put to use manifesting experiences. Be it the experiece of having something that money would buy, or a vacation, or whatever I would like.

I'm sure I'm not the first person to come up with this - for all I know Abraham talks all about it on some CD or tape or in a book I haven't gotten to yet. :) But, here is how *I* manifest the things/experiences I want:

I visualize a snapshot moment (17 seconds? hehe) in time of already having or doing whatever it is. There has to be some motion in there somewhere, some time passing so you can have time to feel emotions (a la the whole 'we feel because there's change' post I made the other day :) ) and sense your surroundings. And actually, 17 seconds sounds about right. ;) I breath as much life into the moment as I can, adding as many details as possible. How does it sound? Smell? Tactile sensation?

The key magic ingredient that makes the bubble go is emotion. How do you feel in your moment? How have did you feel in the seconds leading up to your moment? And how will you be feeling as your moment moves on?

I'll offer here the snapshot time-bubble I created to manifest my Rav4 :)

I'm alone. I'm driving. It's night time. I have the moon roof open and I'm on my way home from somewhere where I just had a very engaging, exhilerating experience. I'm listening to a particular song on a favorite CD. The roads are empty and I'm getting constant green lights because it's so late. I look around my Rav4 and breath a smile of satisfaction, feeeeling into the fact that this is MY car and it's PERFECT! And the price was *so* right and this was SO meant to be. Purr purrpurrpurr.

I drove into my manifested reality snapshot time-bubble a week after I got my Rav4 and it was 100% as I had created it. The key to this, I believe, is getting into the Emotion of the experience. Not into the emotion in the now moment as you're creating it - though I'm sure that helps! - but into the emotion of actually sitting in your future moment and feeling it, in motion. Multiple magnets!

Be sure to pick a moment in time for your snapshot bubble where you're at the height of ecstatic Yes!, just like in the Virtual Reality meditations. That moment when you're at the height of appreciation and joy for your experience having come to join you in Now time.

There are of course many other techniques and processes you can use and things you can do, but the above technique is the most powerful I've discovered. So I thought I would share! I plan to hold a class on all of this some day called Dream Your Life, Live Your Dream - I love this stuff. :)

It is the Love of Ourselves that Keeps us Moving

02-14-06 - 9:31pm

It is the experience of change that brings about sensation.

To explain... If you put your hand on your knee, you feel it. And then it sort of goes away (in a manner of speaking) until something new happens - like you move your hand, or press harder, or take it away. Our body, our ability to sense, is wired on a 'what has changed?' system. I feel that this extends to our emotional guidance system, as well. :)

It is the feeling of going back and forth, up and down, from side to side on the emotional scale that brings about sensation - aka the sense that a different vibratory resonance is in play now than there was a moment ago. With love being the common denominator of change (love, or lack of love - open, or lack of open) when it comes to moving on the emotional scale...perhaps the only reason we *have* an emotional scale is so that we can experience that love. In other words, it is the
*change* on the emotional scale that we are here to experience, because it is in the *change* that we feel the *love*.

Because of our choice to exist in a state of constant change (aka life and time) - we come to know love, and thus ourselves, *experientially.* Instead of just being the amazing balls of pure love-Source-energy that we are, we get to *experience* the amazing balls of pure love-Source-energy that we are, by coming back to ourselves. We are all expanders, on the leading edge of experiencing the amazingness of who we are at any given moment. Be it through experiencing being closed, or open, in the end - it's all good! :)

Being in the middle of an experience of closedness/lack of love/Contrast means we get to have the sweet experience of opening! We get to have the amazing emotional sensations we get to experience every time we come into greater allignment with our original selves (aka Inner Being). So it could be said that those in the greatest contrast are setting themselves up for the greatest Feel Good experience down the road - kinda like delayed satisfaction. :)

So! In other words, as we move through life, we experience contrast so that an emotional scale has the opportunity to exist at all. And as we come closer and closer to who we are - pure balls of Source light, aka pure Love - we feel Great! more often. We feel Great! in all new and intoxicating ways! We fall in love with ourselves.

And it is this love of ourselves - aka our love of the journey - that keeps us moving and changing. Because it just feels so good to Feel Good! And the ultimate Feel Good is to come from Far away from ourselves, to resonating Within ourselves. In order for us to Feel anything, in order for us to Experiences ourselves and understand ourselves instead of just simply knowing ourselves, there must be change. So we get to play the Neeeeeear, Faaaaar game as so lovingly portrayed on Sesame Street back in the day. ;)

Here's a fun one! :) As we get closer to who we are, we begin to resonate with ourselves so fast it goes from Neeeaaaaar...Faaaaar to more of a Near...Far... Near Far, NearFar NeFa NF... And our loving Inner Being originator is the one that gets to remain in place, knowing how perfectly safe we are playing our game, and knowing that the ultimate outcome is assured and that one day we will understand that we are, and we always were, Here Now. :)

Breathing Through Anger

02-11-06 - 11:36pm

I had an interesting experience with anger, today. My husband and I had an altercation, an exchange, where I got angry. I got really angry, and I turned away from him instead of finishign the conversation, and he walked away. And, the longer I sat there, the more livid I got. I was practically shaking, I was so angry.

I remembered the hypnosis experience I had the other day where she had me breathing through the anger. So, I started breathing... And voices kept coming up in my head saying all of the different reasons why I shouldn't be angry. Why my anger wasn't appropriate. Finally I just said to myself, "Fine, I don't care, I'm going to be as angry as I want to be!"

I started calling him names in my head, and having a good ole time just being angry. I was even yelling at the voices that had been in my head saying my anger was inappropriate!

So, after that, I sort of fell flat all of a sudden in my mind. I guess it had been around 10, 15 minutes at that point of crying and shaking and being angry and breathing. I suddenly stopped arguing with myself about whether it was okay to be angry or not... and suddenly I just vented all the steam all at once and I didn't have anywhere to go after that. I was just, like...Okay... Now what?

So I started thinking of the various things I could do to exact revenge or get back my power or whatever. And nothing felt good. It all just felt kind of silly and childish, really. I would follow through and ask myself if that would feel good in the end, and it wouldn't. It would just be empty and silly and, well, a lot of work! *laugh*

And so, I was just breathing and sitting with it and a voice asks me to reach for a better feeling thought - as per Abraham Hicks moving up the emotional scale - and I yell at the voice. *stubborn, petulant voice* "I don't think so! I don't feel like it." *laughs*

The voice was quiet, and so I sat in being angry for a while... and then, honestly, I just sorta got bored! I got bored with being angry, and I started to try and figure out why I was so angry.

A relatively minor thing had become huge. And it was such a big deal to me. And a voice in my head was commenting that, from a very higher, higher perspective the situation probably looked a little silly. And, I yelled at that voice too... But it had a point. I continued to do the breathing.

And then I realized where the originating miscommunication...where the mis... Where I took the wrong turn, was. And it was way back, a week or two ago. And reality wise, it didn't logistically have anything to do with the current state of unrest. But in my mind, in my energy, it had everything to do with it.

And then I realized, I had made an error. It was me. I went down the wrong road, it was my choice. I understood it, and I decided I won't be doing that again. And suddenly, the anger went away. Everything went away. I no longer felt too much of anything, really, other than bewildered. *laughs* And a little tired.

Additional Notes Created 02-21-06

I went back and talked to my husband 30 minutes or so after I had left him and I had no charge whatsoever about it all. I felt totally disconnected from the issue and it all actually felt a little funny to me in retrospect as I told him what had happened. He was very understanding, especially when I apologized for my original error, and the whole thing dissolved right then and there instead of turning into a multi-day grump fest as it might have only a few months before.

It was really exciting to move through anger in this new and liberating way. And to let myself feel it! To really get into it - all the while breathing of course - and just to let it move through me instead of stuffing it in to my joints. Amazing. That, and I didn't feel the post-traumatic joint pain I tend to feel the next day! I have learned to successfully feel, move through, and release anger in a way that was positive and healthy. That's so cool! *beam*

Dancing With My Reflection

Dancing With My Reflection
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And so I sit and look into my reflection,
Caling myself forth with coaxing smiles and fetching words

Yes, I know you're there.

Myself and I together in the mirror,
Playing the game of separation.

Yes, I know you're there.

In the smile of a child,
In the stroke of a bird's wing,
In the purring of the world's sweetest cat

"Come and play with me,"
I say

"Show me how wonderful I am, and then maybe I'll believe you,"
I say

"Are you there?"
I say

Yes, I know you're there.

Just sometimes...I forget. But I remember now. Thank you, world, for being my reflection. :)

- by... Dawn! :)

The Body's Guidance System

02-08-09 - 8:07am

It seems that I can ask my body a question, or ask myself a question, in the form of a statement, like, "I am going to do *this*," and my body will have a sweep of energy. It will either feel as if it's opening, or closing. And in doing that, apparently I can tell how I really feel. The energy goes from head to toe, and it's a feeling of expansion, or contraction. Expansion feels good. Contraction...doesn't feel bad, but it doesn't feel good either. It's just sort of...less. Perhaps this is a new guidance system?

Healing with Deeper Perception Meets Donna Eden

01-29-06 - 10:27pm

Original Transcript

Get Big. Ask that all levels of all chakras be cleared and balanced and that your polarities are aligned. After the chakra balancing and clearing, feel things settle down for a bit. Ask for the polarity, wait for thing to settle down a bit. Then ask to be filled with love, light and power. Settle down a bit. Thank the Divine being. And that's it!

Additional Notes created 02-11-06

I learned so much at Rose Rosetree's Healing with Deeper Perception Intensive! I wanted to record this right away before I forget. Pam, a friend I made at the intensive, combined her own learning of Donna Eden's work with Rose's teaching and came up with a technique for clearing and balancing the chakras, sedating the Alarm Points and aligning the polarities and just all around feeling good. :) Here it is!

~ Invite in a Divine Being, such as Jesus or an Archangel or Ascended Master, and take two deep breaths to settle into the contact.

~ Ask that All levels of All chakras be cleared and balanced.
You will feel a rush of energy from your feet to your head, and then back down again. It feels as if things are being shifted and aligned inside – a good feeling! Wait until you feel this is complete before going on to the next thing.

~ Ask that your Polarities be aligned.
I feel this as a tingle of energy on the left and right sides of my head that sweeps its way down to my feet. Wait until you feel this is complete before going on to the next thing.

~ Ask that you be filled with Love, Power and Light.
I feel this as a ballooning sensation to the energy all around my body. Warm and open.

~ When finished, thank the Divine Being. I've found that gratitude comes so naturally after experiencing this.

The whole thing takes anywhere from 10 minutes to 1 minute, depending on where I'm at. I am now doing it once in the morning and once in the evening before bed. :)

~ Part 1 of 2The only difference between getting better and not getting better

01-27-06 - 3:43am

The only difference between getting better and not getting better is being in fear, or being in hope. This doctor tried to take away my hope, and so I can't work with him. I'm very hopeful, and I refuse to for longer than an hour or so *laugh* or even less than that, give up any measure of my hope. It has taken me a long time to gather that together, and I've got quite a bit. It's very powerful and I feel good.

I mean, the guy went in doing his specialist thing - he's a rheumatoid arthritis specialist, and guess what? He found rheumatoid arthritis! Big surprise there. When I asked him if it was Lupus he basically shook his head and said, "From my physical exam you've got rheumatoid arthritis disease."

Well that's great! Actually. I have progressed so far that I'm no longer showing enough signs for them to really be able to say I have Lupus at all - like they were saying once. I've cleared up so many of those symptoms, that it almost doesn't look like the same thing anymore. And who knows? Maybe it wasn't Lupus - maybe it wasn't anything! Maybe it's just a set of symptoms of auto-immune inflamation, my body expressing my grief - crying in a physical way.

Whatever the case may be... at first I thought, I'm just going to burn all these papers, all these pamphlets and requests for labs and x-rays and everything else, and he can just go to hell. *laugh* And then I was going to go it alone 100% on my own again just like before. But then I talked to Keith (husband), and I thought about it and realized you know, this experience with this doctor has shown me 100% of what I don't want to have. This is contrast in its highest light. I now know what I Do Not Want in a doctor. I'm *very* clear about that.

So, now I can get even clearer in what I do want in a doctor. I want someone who hopes. I want somenoe who looks at me and sees recovery and health and vitality. I want somebody to work with me and see me with a capacity for wellness, rejuvination, regeneration. I want someone to look at me and see what's possible, not what's impossible.

Before I went to the doctor's, I went in and meditated for a little while. Just to settle my energy and prepare myself for the experience to come, because I knew my energy was pulling in different directions. I just wanted to smooth it out and be open to the experience to the best of my ability.

I was meditating and I got the sudden urge to get up and dance. And so, I did...I went and turned on some music, invited my husband who was working at home to come dance with me for a little while. And we danced. We listened to Alanis Morisette's song, the remake of Seal's song, Crazy. And I remember, I felt so Good. So Alive, dancing.

In retrospect, it was almost as if I was gathering energy for the experience to come. Bolstering myself with a good dose of Feel Good high vibration energy, so that I wouldn't drop quite as far in vibration as I might have otherwise with the experience I had with the doctor who looked at me and saw someone who had no hope for recovery. Only the option to extend life, and maintain quality of life for what short time I had. Well, phhhhhbt Mr. Doctor. Thanks, but I'm going to get a second opinion.

Maybe there's medications out there that can help me... All I know is I don't want to take them when they're prescribed by someone who sees the glass as half empty. I will *not* allow someone to take my hope away, because I AM getting better. I AM better. And the better I get, the better I get. Period. *And so it is.*

~ Part 2 of 2If ye have but the faith of a mustard seed

01-27-06 - 4:27am I know there's a saying, if ye have but the faith of a mustard seed, you can move mountains... But a mustard seed was never interested in moving mountains. *laugh* My journey is different than everyone elses, and yet it is similar in that it is in myself, and it's never been anywhere else. It's not any easier or harder than for people who've been on their own journeys. It's all in me. All this and more ye shall do - is true. And so I journey within myself to a place of love and understanding and light. I was watching Superman earlier today, and Superman's father said, "They have a great capacity for good in them, they only lack the light to guide them," when he was speaking of the human race. I Am the light, and the light is in me. The light...is me. I am following my own path and my own journey... .... home. That is the light. If any mustard seed really wanted to move mountains, I think we'ld all be in trouble. *laugh* But, I think the point in that is that, the mustard seed doesn't have any adverse beliefs working against what it wants...it just simply is. Yet the human being has much more power than a mustard seed because it has conscious will and desire. And so, before it is given the power to move mountains, it must earn that power by understanding its will and desire. You will not be given the ability and the light and the power to move mountains until you reach a level where you understand what it's for. You don't give a baby a flame thrower. *laugh* And so, as we move upward in our own journey in faith and love, following that light home...we gain power and ability, because we can not help but do so as we come to a greater understanding that we are that light...and we always were.